21st Century Ecology of Life - Tag Archive

Enlightening the Passions – Day 24 (Vulnerable)

It may be that when we no longer know which way to go, we have come to our real journey. The mind that is not baffled is not employed. The impeded stream is the one that sings. – Wendell Berry; Collected Poems Today I’m in the frail kingdom, the space where you feel raw, as … Read more →

constellation, fear of separation, freedom, jealousy, vulnerability

Enlightening the Passions – Day 23 (Fear & Imagination)

Angels can fly because they take themselves so lightly. – G.K. Chesterton I think I finally know what the basic vibration of jealousy is: It’s fear, the fear of separation of the one you love most. It’s an utterly irrational fear fed by the demon of distrust, a mind that can easily imagine bleak futures, … Read more →

beauty, brightness, distrust, fear, jealousy, joy, love, peace, relationship, vision

Enlightening the Passions – Day 22 (Understanding)

December 8th, 2008 | Posted by Mushin in jealousy | revenge | storytelling | understanding - (5 Comments)

I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars. – Og Mandino In the beginning of this experiment I didn’t know how long it would take. Than, in the course of delving deeper into my feeling nature – forced, in a … Read more →

jealousy, revenge, storytelling, understanding

Enlightening the Passions – Day 19 (Dark Waves)

Providence has hidden a charm in difficult undertakings which is appreciated only by those who dare to grapple with them. — Anne-Sophie Swetchine; The Writings of Madame Swetchine The day has only just begun and Madam J. dropped by much more forcefully than she did yesterday. Only now, given the right circumstance for this investigation, … Read more →

anger, challenges, enlightenment, jealousy, sadness

Enlightening the Passions – Day 18 (Madame J. visits)

December 4th, 2008 | Posted by Mushin in jealousy | sadness | taking things personal | uncertainty - (10 Comments)

You don’t get to choose how you’re going to die. Or when. You can decide how you’re going to live now. — Joan Baez Had an interesting encounter with my old friend jealousy – Madame J. – today. Interesting, because when I expected her to come and burn up my heart-solar plexus area, give me … Read more →

jealousy, sadness, taking things personal, uncertainty

Enlightening the Passions – Day 13 (Clear Delight)

One must have chaos in oneself in order to give birth to a dancing star. – Friedrich Nietzsche One of the truly aspects of this study turns out to be the malleability of feelings – or maybe it isn’t the feelings themselves but the way the are perceived. But I guess, I don’t have to … Read more →

criticism, in love, jealousy, romanticism, rose cloud, scepticism, sensuality

Enlightening the Passions – Experiment: Day 9 (Shame)

November 24th, 2008 | Posted by Mushin in feeling field | jealousy | shame - (14 Comments)

This morning, as I was looking out of the kitchen window, feeling the hot fires of jealousy flaming up in my breast, I was thinking, how nice it would be to return to Advaita Vedanta – my old friend – and deconstruct all of this feeling and emotivity and return to the pure “I-am-ness” that … Read more →

feeling field, jealousy, shame

Enlightening the Passions – Experiment: Day 8

Even though this morning I sat with “a sense of insecurity” it was next to impossible to get to the core of it. Insecurity’s cousin, Shyness, is well known to me and I’ve long ago come to know it’s presencing qualities and its connective character, so I meandered a bit around shyness, giving myself an … Read more →

connectedness, feeling field, insecurity, jealousy, love, presencing, shyness

Enlightening the Passions – Day 7 (Guilt & Jealousy)

November 22nd, 2008 | Posted by Mushin in divorce | guilt | hopelessness | jealousy - (22 Comments)

I thought today was going to be about guilt… it was one of the first feelings I was confronted with in the morning. One of the unforeseeable consequences of this experiment is that I’ve gotten a very thin skin. I pick up on a feeling that previously would have led me to an automatic reaction … Read more →

divorce, guilt, hopelessness, jealousy

Enlightening the Passions – Day 6 (Jealousy)

As I was sitting this morning, scanning the list of the ingredients in the alchemical mix that is cooking in the cauldron of my heart (yes, my heart is also a cauldron; actually it’s the whole region between my lower throat and my pelvis) I finally was ready to face one that isn’t even on … Read more →

feeling, feeling field, flow, jealousy, nature of feelings