Powerlessness, limitations, the powers of those and that beyond me… this day was filled with intimate encounters with that very feeling. But first I need to touch on some considerations that have come up in me regarding this exploration as a whole. It’s next to impossible to separate feelings, the essential emotions that I’m exploring … Read more

Today was challenging – yes indeed. Maybe because I took another close look at “powerless anger” (ohnmächtige Wut), and maybe also because a major triggering event recurred today in my relationship. Maybe also because I experienced strong waves of (unfulfilled) desire, and maybe because all of this came on strong together. What’s clear is that … Read more

Once there is the resolve to move in a certain direction out of a basic understanding that this is “the call of my destiny”, things are more easy, even if from another point of view they might be hard. Last night I was reading about suffering from a Buddhist point of view – suffering’s nature, … Read more