Now the re-search can begin.

I now remember many things that happened along the way which are much more congruent with my present way of inquisitive and cooperative spirituality than with the authoritarian spirituality that I was participating in these last 22 years.

Having dropped the feudalistic-patriarchal maps of spiritual experience and the universe I stand unencumbered by the need to realize anything at all. That allows me to stay with reality in it’s, I was going to say two directions – within and without – but as I now look, there actually is no inside that I could look into: it somehow stops at the ‘point’ of awareness. Yes, I can explore this ‘point’ – being aware of awareness, being amazed at the very fact of it being. Yet, I don’t feel that I should privilege awareness above its content .